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I took a brief walk this morning, on our 4th wedding anniversary, also the first day of my vacation, a period I like to call retirement rehearsal. It was a wonderful walk; the cool air filled me with calmness and a light joy. I moved down Chesterfield Avenue like a cloud gliding across the sky. I have been on a wonderful streak for more than two months now, feeling relaxed, cheerful, and content. Wonderful is a word I use often, literally every day.

Imperfect things still surround me. I make mistakes, but I accept them and move on. I am not concerned, nor afraid, that this streak will break. One comforting realization is that I do not need to struggle with negative emotions. I can receive them with ease, move with them as time passes, and carry on with my day: exercise, music, writing, reading, and learning. I am living in a different register now, a new frame of mind, learning to understand my thoughts, my actions, and my fears in ways I never could before. I feel content.